Waking

It rained so long

the wall became soft

and the flowers on the wallpaper faded

away, except the big ones

I can see through

the glassy seam:

A wavering aquarium

filled from crying,

clouded by time

To Be Omaha

maybe it’s big enough

maybe not

Sioux Falls a possibility

or I could be off a state or two

looking down from my window seat

lights orange and yellow in the dusk below

clustered like a brooch

pinned on a chiosam dress

grey black botanical fronds on a white background

a wide river piping down the neck thick and satin

doesn’t matter

you were born somewhere down there

can you love a place you’ve never seen?

breath of God blowing off the plains

the sunset days to the west

cold cold grey in winter

beloved because of you

teenager

you see in his face the baby
you held tight like nothing else to hold

you poured in love as from a garden hose
endless and clear

now a scraggly bunch of whiskers
interspersed with the blemishes
the many imperfections
the being human
that so distresses him

leaves you incapable

the spigot turns on,
dams up inside
there’s nothing you can do
there’s nothing you can do

Yellow (red eye taking off from Dulles)

Yowl low

Yowl low

Yowl low

Tiny girl seated behind me

Mouthing it the first time

tangy

stretchy

liquid taffy

Later it'd be sunshine

egg yolk

flower

or lemon

For now

yowling moon sliver

horizon sailing

wee happy boat

on the longest, darkest night

For Dad

I wrote this to be read at my father's "life celebration" service held today, January 29, 2011, in Harrisonburg.  I wasn't able to attend, having been back east for his last days and the private funeral.  I'm including a photo taken about five years ago, of Dad, my son Reilly, husband Paul, son Trigg.  They'd been watching the Blue Angels fly over San Francisco.

You’ve heard a lot about my father today.  Most of which is true and all of which I’m sure he enjoyed hearing.  But it’s my job as his daughter to tell you a few things that didn’t get mentioned.

Before he was “Coach Cummins” he was little Brownie Cummins.  The baby of the family.

He had no memory of his father, who took off when Dad was four.  But his mother Pearl was strong and resilient.

She showered him with tough love while his sister Blanch spoiled him rotten.

To make him stay down for his nap, they would station the vacuum cleaner outside his room.  He was scared to death of the vacuum cleaner.

Blanch said he had the prettiest legs she’d ever seen on a boy.

As a youngster, he liked to go hunting before school.  All by himself before the sun peeked over the ridgetop.

He was a champion marble player and his winnings are buried at the base of fence posts all over Wise County.  Jars and jars full of colored glass, according to Dad’s brother Howard.

Brother Jack sliced Dad with a scythe as they played “jungle” one day and for the rest of his life Dad carried a long and serious scar across the palm of his hand.

Skinny, tall and blond.  With a sweet, shy smile.  That was Brownie the teenager.

He met my mom in high school.  But on what she thought was their first date he walked a different girl home.

The army sent him to San Francisco where he had so much fun he might have been stationed at a country club.  But he didn’t try the crab while he was there.

Back in Virginia he learned to love crab.  By the bushel.  He also liked biscuits, Snickers bars, peanut butter fudge, peanuts, deviled ham, Vienna sausage, donuts, Martin’s barbecue waffle potato chips, and Scotch on the rocks.

 

He refused to watch scary movies.  He’d been traumatized by the original version of “The Blob.”

After retirement, he grew roses and arranged them in vases for my mother.

He left her love notes on post-its, along with shopping lists and reminders to drive carefully.

He thought she was the most beautiful woman on Earth, and frequently quoted a friend of theirs who called her “The Best Looking Broad in Harrisonburg.”

He was a morning person.  He’s the one who made breakfast at our house.  Dad would sing “There she is, Miss America” as Mom dragged herself to the breakfast table.  She was not a morning person.

When I hugged him he smelled of Old Spice and cigars.

I loved watching him use a pocket knife.

He was a Democrat.

He was an expert solitaire player.

He was my husband’s favorite fly-fishing buddy.

He liked to nap in front of the TV, preferably with a football game on.

He was a devoted husband.

He was a steadfast father .

He was a doting Grandfather .

And his whole life long he was truly a kid at heart.

He was the sweetest Brownie ever.

I miss him terribly.

Getting Your San Francisco House Ready to Show? Ten Tips Most Realtors Won’t Share But I Will

They don’t share them because these tips seem so obvious that pointing them out is a delicate and potentially embarrassing matter. 

1. Don’t cook fish the night before an open house. OK, yes, there is a teeny tiny chance that a few prospective buyers will applaud your decision to consume protein that is rich in Omega-3 fatty acids. But their subconscious olfactory response to the eau de salmon hitting them as they walk through the front door will ultimately translate into a lower sales price.

2. Lose the cat box. It does not matter is it has a lid. It does not matter if you’ve scooped it out with your sifter or changed the litter altogether. It’s still gross. Especially tucked next to the toilet in the half bath. (See note on subconscious olfactory response problem in item 1.)

3. Lose the cat while you’re at it. Just for the day. Nobody appreciates the note on the bedroom door that says “Cat inside. Keep door shut.” It makes people nervous. Nervous they’ll have an allergic reaction. Nervous your cat has peed all over the house. Nervous they may be attacked. Nervous that they have to follow instructions.

4. Hide the TV. Flat-screen televisions are no longer a trendy novelty. And televisions as the focal point of a room don’t project that suave metropolitan-home I-like-to-play-chess-and-sip-absinthe-in-the-evenings image that will fetch you an extra ten grand.

5. Don’t dare require visitors to take off their shoes. No matter that the carpet was just cleaned or that your religion forbids it.

6. And no blue booties either.

7. Turn off the music. Otherwise people will wonder what noise you’re trying to mask.

8. Turn on the heat and turn on the lights. Cold, dark houses don’t warm hearts and two hours of conservation aren’t going to save the planet.  Even on a sunny day, it's cold here in SF.

9. No, you can’t stage the property yourself. Yes, you probably do need staging.

10. Hear your agent’s advice on asking price but insist on pricing it even lower.

Bonus tip:  List your house with me!

Endlessly rowing

Stuff added today to my to-do list, verbatim:

Patty 585
Outlook Q – add in thing
AT&T thing
Writing – writers
Noriega – follow up
¼ fish bad
Call Julian
Oh Darling, Human Touch
UAL
Keats letters
Christine! Aldo!
Ledger #792040
Call Curt
April sitters
Daniel Ellsberg
Bicycle
Gabriella search parameters
Links for Aman
Albrecht
Gabriella homebuyer credit
Carmen
$ Steve 160
Photo info
Website!
Mail list!
RSVP spring night
Paul re MZ leak
Net nanny
Sofa legs
Water tree
Docusign account
43rd Avenue!!!
Paint walls